I Don't Want...

I don't want:

to miss the parting of the seas because I'm too busy looking for a lifeboat.

to close myself off from the mystical and miraculous just because my mind insists on cold, hard logic.

to lock myself down, close myself in, or self-protect because in doing so, I not only close out others, but I lock in God.

to allow my intellect to dictate to my Spirit. Ever.

my relationships to be built on my emotions, but on God's grace.

my flesh to define who I am.

to have words and knowledge apart from love.

to be right. I want to know Him.

to expect my experience to be someone else's.

to present grace as a doctrine; He is a person named Jesus.

to overlook a new thing because the old thing worked.

to debate the Gospel; I want to embody it.

to live in yesterday or tomorrow, but to call it TODAY.

to look for sun in the rain or wish for rain in the sun but to be content in every situation.

to ever, ever take my gaze from Jesus' eyes or my ear from His heart.

to forget that my life is hid in Christ.

to understand God so much as to trust Him. (I know trust comes with understanding but can we trust when we don't understand?)

to see myself in a mirror, but in the cross.

to miss a single rainbow because I'm hiding under an umbrella.

to fear the storm. I want to rest in the One who controls it.

to sit in the boat. I want to walk on waves even at the risk of sinking.

to confine the infinite God by my finite need for control.

to hoard God's love and offer crumbs to others.

to live like a beggar when I'm an heir.

to embrace intolerance, but people.

to use knowledge as a weapon, authority as an excuse, or grace as a license to wound.

to only know the God of scripture. I want to know the God of my heart, my breath, my life.

to question, but to obey. (Yes, I know, I question everything! But I want to trust God so much that although I can question, I don't have to.)

to ever settle for religion over relationship.

to read about life. I want to LIVE Life.

to forget how to laugh at myself and with others.

to study the map so hard that I miss the journey.

to care more about what others think than what God says.

the circumstantial to define the experiential.

to elevate my earthly mentality over my spiritual reality.

to ever, ever, ever, ever forget that I AM THE BELOVED OF GOD.